Comin Home

The Kappa retreat was a lot of fun. General hanging out learning about each other eating pizza with no plates, sharing pop from 2 litre bottles, singing dirty songs to the frats, hanging banners up with sheets instead of the tape we were provided with, and chalking the campus. It was fun and I definitely do feel closer to people in Kappa now.
So first of all, I got lost on my way home saturday, a whopping three different times. Well ok, i only got lost once, but took a wrong turn 2 other times. The one time I got on the wrong exit and started heading backwards towards Galesburg, it was really annoying; I was pissed. The first time I just missed an exit but could turn around in like two seconds so it wasn't a big deal. The major time I got lost, I didn't realize I had to get on 88 so i ended up in iowa. I saw the Mississippi and I was just like "i hate everything" and freaked out. Seriously I was so upset about it. But even though i got lost that many times I still only added half an hour to my ride home. But being at home was nice, kinda strange knowing I had to go back here again so soon but I really liked sleeping in my nontwin bed for sure and it was nice to see my entire family basically because Sunday was my parents' 34th anniversary so people were over for a lunch thing. It was also nice to see Jeromiah because I feel like I haven't made real guy friends here yet and I am missing it for sure. But on the way back here I had no issues at all. So that was my weekend.
We had softball practice tonight, and as much as I missed my girls and asbury, it was fun. I forget how much I actually just enjoy that sport. Like it's honestly such a good thing in my life. But my legs are gonna be real sore tomorrow because they don't have knee savers and I hadn't caught all summer really. But it was fun. That's all I really have to say though.
JDesk

First drive

So I don't really know why besides the fact that I have stuff I need to get, but I'm going home tomorrow. It's been a very strange week but I sort of blame that on being a girl. Like actual stuff happened this week too but I think I just freaked out about it because of PMS but whatever.
Tonight is our Kappa new member retreat and I'm really excited about it. Only because I think it'll make me closer to those girls and I'm excited for that. I think because of the fact that all my quad mates are going home this weekend (which is another reason I'm going home) I've noticed how not a ton of friends I have here. Not like I'm a big loser without friends or anything, it's just different so far you know?
But I have to go to my theatre class now so i just wanted to give a quick update.
JDesk

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I don't know who to talk to about this one. I hate that it's upsetting to me but it is. God, it is. I'm so hurt by it and I just can't handle it right now. Like I just moved into college a little over a week ago and now I have to deal with this and I don't have any of my friends around to fix it. Even though they couldn't do it either and even if they were here I couldn't tell them. God I hate keeping secrets, especially when they hurt me. I just.. I don't know what to do either. I have to go do something though; I can't handle this at all just sitting here in my dorm. Hopefully my sorority meeting will make me feel better tonight. I think being in a sorority is really going to help me get friends that I'm really that close to, because right now I miss every one of my friends so much right now. I miss my old life right now.
My life is like a movie and sometimes I love it. I really do. But right now I wish i were in the audience, knowing what it is that I should do. Because you always know what the main character should do as an audience member, but in real life, you can't ever figure it out. Can't I just watch my life play out? And I'm missing my supporting characters. Missing them so much.
I may go get my ear pierced again. That may be what I do.
JDesk

K to the A to the P-P-A, G to the A to the M-M-A , Kappa Gamma, That's what I am-a

So yesterday was bid day. Three of our quad ladies were rushing at two of us pref'd the same sorority first so we were all really curious to see who would go where. So we're all sitting around in our white dresses trying to stay distracted so we're not just watching the clock so we're like singing super loud and obnoxious to like Taylor Swift and Miley Cyrus and Jonas Brothers. Well Alyse got formally invited into it first when Alpha Xi came to the door and it was very cute and exciting. But so then we figured it out that we'd be in three different ones, because Katie and Alyse had both pref'd Pi Phi first and neither of them had pref'd Kappa like I had. We pretty much didn't even think of me being Pi Phi which was my second choice so we were pretty excited about the three b20 girls being in different ones. So then Kappa came for me and gave me my invitation and took pictures and it was cute. Then we waited for Pi Phi to come for Katie, because if you're not gonna get invited into a sorority they call you in the morning and tell you so we knew they'd be coming for her. But so we all had to go down to Wallace Hall at 1 and split up into our sororities and like find out which recruitment leaders were in which sorority and learn some songs and then we all rushed out into cars and well kappa has a hay trailer from a place around here that we new pledges jumped on and got crowns and then we got paraded around town and the campus and stuff and just like got loud and obnoxious and shit. It was fun. But then we got out at stewart house (our founding house) and hung out for a bit and got little bracelets then did a formal pledge and got our new member pins and our bid day t-shirts (which were hot pink) and then we had like half hour to get changed into our shirts and then meet to walk to our advisor's house for a cookout thing where we just hung out and chilled and learned some more songs then we did a candle pass with all three sororities and the seniors did a candle pass and one last bid day rendition of a song and then the kappas did the song too. And then we were free to go do anything that was within the limits of purity day. Bid day is purity night so like no drinking, no boys, nothing that wouldn't be fitting for a sorority girl to do in her letters, even though we weren't in letters. In letters you can't do anything you couldn't do in church- which includes no swearing which I'm really gonna have to work on. But I have til October to get used to that because that's when formal initiation is. But yeah. That was sorority bid day.

But I got back to the dorm and hung out with Katherine and one of her friends from ILA, who is in my communications class, and Abby and we were gonna watch friends and we started just talking and it was a ton of fun just being able to tell stories with people. But then we did watch some friends and it was fun.
The point of the story is that I'm having a lot of fun in college but I do have work to do now. I have 102 pages of history to read by wednesday so I probably should get on that.
JDesk

College Life- week 1

I've been at school for almost a week now and I am proud to say I've already done things I figured I wouldn't...
I get along with my three quadmates amazingly. Honestly, i never thought I could live with someone peacefully and I've been doing it and almost enjoying it.
I decorated. Yes, i know that seems like a nothing thing, but I've never had like pictures of my best friends or letters from them up and prominent as like a space that shows me and what's important in my life.
I have talked on the phone to someone everyday. Yes, that's right, the girl who notoriously doesn't pick up her phone when you call has been calling people herself because I really do miss everyone.
I rushed a sorority. I know I said I didn't get it and wouldn't do it, but I decided maybe to see what it was about and pay the 5 dollars to go through recruitment. I had a blast. Every night I had fun. Tonight I was maybe a little tired of it, and anxious for bid day tomorrow but I still had a lot of fun and I'm really excited to find out what I will be. I got invited back to all three both nights of invite only- I was really excited about it and had no one around to gush to because my quadmates that are rushing with me didn't get invited to the ones they wanted, or all the ones they wanted and I didn't want to get super excited in front of them when they were upset and I didn't really know who to talk to about it. But it's ok because I made my decision and I'll see how it turns out tomorrow and if I hate it I can always deactivate but I somehow don't see myself doing that. The point is, sorority life is kinda addicting right now.

Classes have been ok so far too; I'm bored with Latin right now, History wasn't as intense as i thought it would have been from the first day but I think it'll get there probably, Intro the Theatre and Film has been fun so far- the movie we watched today (Being John Malkovic) was absolutely batshit bizarre, Intro to Liberal Arts so far is pretty damn basic, and Communications is kinda fun also has a bit of eye candy so that makes it better :).

But I am tired now and have to be ready for bid day craziness.
JDesk