Ave

I love my best friends a lot; I miss them a shit ton. I love Pink and her new cd which I actually bought- crazy right?
I hate being sick. I hate when people don't respond to my txts.
I want it to be November 7th. I want hugs back in my life.
I don't want to go swimming. I don't ever want to hear her voice again, but I can't avoid that one.
I think I'm not going to go swimming, because I feel like shit. God, seriously, I feel like death warmed over. Have all day.
I need to write my essay for the honors program. It's like re-applying to college. I hate proving that I'm good enough, because I feel like I hardly ever prove it. But w/e. I don't really have a lot to say.

I really like talking on the phone anymore. The things college does to you ha. i'm gonna go, like die now.

If Socialism is the worst you can accuse me of...

Despite the title of this blog, it has nothing to do with politics.
I just feel like people say socialism like it's the devil's dance and I don't get it. I don't understand how helping people as much as possible is bad. But i do understand the drawback of it. I guess maybe the fact that in my everyday life I don't help people as much as I probably should makes me feel like I can just throw tax money at people and it'll sorta even out the balance, if that makes any sense.
But, the real point is to give an update on my life:
I'm applying for the honors program and I'm excited about it. I'm not sure why, but I really am. I'm excited that I was recognized to be nominated for it.
I had no reason to panic.
I'm so excited for Halloween that it's ridiculous.
Caitlin and I made a pact to both talk to the guys we kinda are into. And mine is not the same guy that I'm currently.... benefitting? I suppose I'll go with that term.
I don't know how I feel about playing softball here. And it bothers me. I'll do it this year of course, but I don't know if I'll do it again; depends on how this year goes.
I'm going to see Maggie on the 8th, because Kappa initiation got pushed back. Which will be an opportunity to get to know all of our sisters better; it isn't a punishment. But it was still very upsetting. Monday sorta sucked. PMS kinda makes my life horrible. But I'm excited to go see Maggie and see a D1 football game even though I'll be missing our Knox game... But D1 football! and my best friend!!
I'm going to see Sarah over spring break and I'm psyched about it! I'm so excited to both see her and see NYC for the first time in my life.
I'm so excited to start taking real English classes next semester.
I may do an off-campus study program at a huge research library to write a 30 or 70 page paper. Like that's one of the off campus things I'm sorta looking at. But I don't know if I could/should but I have a while to decide. I also still want to go to Greece. But i don't know what program to do for that. But w/e

Ok, update ended, because I have other stuff to do. lol

An Excercise in Mind over Body

Fact: I know what I should be doing.
Fact: I know how I should make myself feel.
Fact: I know I should probably feel remorse.
Fact: It's a little bit harder than that.
Fact: I may be panicking. Is this what panicking feels like? This may be panicking.


Fact: There is no need to be doing so....yet.

Fuck.

Never Take Advice From People With Mullets

I'd just like to reiterate that I love college. I miss all of you, but damn, I love college.
I've had a fucking killer week. Killer. From like Friday on. Honestly. I'm hoping it lasts til I get back at least, like through break. I'm really excited to go home though too; I need a bunch of stuff from home- like a mall ha. And my cat. I miss my cat a lot. I'm also really excited to go up to Carthage too and see Katerina and Kassandra and KJ. And meet Katerina's roommate. I'm jazzed about it. But yeah. I've been in a good mood and I'm loving it. But it also makes me think I'm bi-polar haha.
I just really don't want to do this paper that I have to do for ILA. But I need to go check my email about that so I'm done with the life update.

Ode to October

The leaves on one of the trees out my window have begun changing and I've gotten to wear a hoodie everyday this week so far and I've been able to curl up with my friendship blanket every night. No more shorts, no more humidity that makes you sweat just sitting in your dorm room, no more wishing you were still in your own room so you could sleep in as little as possible. It's finally fall. Thanksgiving is coming soon enough and you'll get to see your friends who you haven't seen since August. It's October so the first Halloween away from home and parents is around the corner.
But most importantly, it's Postseason; it's finally time to see your team when it matters. You watched all season, intoning "it's this year" and "Goddamnit!" and "It's alright, they've got two games of the series left" and "At least they didn't get swept" with your heart pounding and your blood rushing and your vocal chords straining because everyone knows that they can hear you through the television to wherever they are that night. You counted down the magic number or you crossed your fingers for a forced tiebreaker or you held your breath for a major misstep and it all paid off. It's finally here. Be excited. Be ready. And most importantly, GO WHITE SOX!